Tumblr: Benedict Cumberbatch filmed the ice bucket challenge at his home.

Me: Really? Oh, I love his patio. I love the bench with the planters behind. I love the color of his hardwood floors. It looks like reclaimed wood. The black tiles are very nice too. Oh, what lovely brick walls!!! I wish they had more buildings with brick and iron work. I wonder what type of bike that is? He has a jag? Duh, of course he does, he is a spokesperson. I can’t tell if it’s black or blue. But it is a convertible, which must be nice on a hot summer day.

Fandom: Some jerk figured out where he lives and posted his address.

Me: WTF?!?!?! (╯°□°)╯︵ ┻━┻

Disability, ablism, and my family: part 1

The other day I was watching Benedict Cumberbatch do the ice bucket challenge. It was funny and I laughed. There are times I laugh until I have an asthma attack.

I laugh, I start coughing, I keep laughing, I cough harder, my lungs burn, my chest feels constricted, I keep laughing, I cough harder, I can’t breathe, I’m getting dizzy, I keep laughing, I cough harder, I taste blood in my mouth, I can’t stay upright, I have to lay down, I will myself to stop laughing, I can’t stop, I feel sick to my stomach, I have black spots in my vision, I’m scared, I keep laughing, I’m in pain, it’s not fun anymore, I can’t stop, I grab my inhaler, it tastes horrible, I hurt all over, my lungs still burn, I cough for another half hour.

My brother says it’s because I didn’t work out. “You don’t have asthma. You are just lazy. If you would just do some exercise and lose some weight, you would be just fine.”

When I was in high school, I was in color guard. I was exercising 3 times a day, up to 6 days a week. I still had asthma. I was first told I had asthma when was a baby, but the doctor wouldn’t write it down on the chart because I would lose my insurance coverage. When I was in high school, an allergy doctor said I had it. I was finally given an inhaler in college after I couldn’t stop coughing. So yeah, I have asthma!!!